Friday, June 3, 2011

On the Eve of PGY2...

Yes, I've been gone; Missing In Action. 
(Here is my attempt to fill in the gaps for the past several months.)

March was hard.  

Very hard.  Probably even harder than last March (when I made myself crazy worrying about match).  If you remember my family and I were enduring a storm, and March was a turning point for us, we were waiting for the forecast. We would either be enduring months of more rain or we would finally get some relief in the form of a rainbow.  So in March, I was consumed with the turn of events and simply put, I was an absolute mess.  

But turns out we got our rainbow.  God faithfully answered our prayers. The sun is now shining on my family, and while we are still expecting a few lingering showers, we have made it out of that storm, stronger and closer than ever.  

And to be honest, April was still a little tough because even though I had gotten my wish, our prayers had been answered, I still felt bruised and broken.  I didn't understand why I was still hurt, I had expected the pain to all vanish as quickly as it had appeared.  I really struggled with being unable to bounce back to my prior self.  But with time, the pain and anger has faded, and I finally feel like a normal human being again.

But I have since struggled with how to get back to blogging.  Its hard to return to something when you have gotten out of the habit.  

When I was going through the storm with my family, it was not something I could share publicly.  It was also something in which I felt like I was constantly going out of my mind.  The turn of events were so unreal, I had trouble even putting them in writing for myself.  I just couldn't wrap my head around it all.  

But as we are wrapping up intern year, and I see the difficulties and challenges of PGY2* on the horizon, I realize I need to get back in the habit of blogging.  Writing has been my therapy the past several years (until recently of course).  And I lost that outlet.  

I know the next few months are going to be a difficult transition, as Mr. Dawkter takes on longer hours and greater responsibilities as a second year resident. I know I need to return to blogging as it is so therapeutic to share my frustrations, fears and laughs as we continue our journey through medical training.  Not to mention I will have a lot more time on my hands, and Mr. D will be spending the majority of his time at the hospital!

So while I've had a major leave of absence, hopefully I am back for good now.  

*PGY2 - stands for Post Graduate Year 2 (second year of residency or second year out of medical school)


  1. When you stop doing something you're accustomed to, not only is it hard since it was your therapy, but it's SO hard to get back into the habit. But we're glad to have you back! We want to hear more about what's going on in your life, if you can share it.

  2. Hi lady! I was so excited to see your blog pop up on my blogroll :)
    I'm sorry for all the hard things you and your family have gone through this year so far - I hope that you'll soon find that you can get back on track.
    Congrats to Mr. D for completing his first year!

  3. Always good to have ya back!!

  4. I was so happy to see you pop up in my reader! I've missed your posts. I hope that things turn around and that Dr. D continues to succeed!

  5. Welcome back!

    I'm so sorry to hear you and your family went through something so rough, but glad that it seems to have had a happy resolution.

    We're on the cusp of PGY3 and I can say, PGY2 was rough but MAN it went by quickly!!


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